For as long as I can remember we have wanted more kids in the family. Through the years we’ve had several opportunities to adopt- but each one fell through.
The first one, a scared young girl. In the end, her mother took her to get an abortion. Several months later a pastor friend introduced us to a woman wanting to give her baby up for adoption. But she ended up getting an abortion. Around a year later we were introduced to another woman, but this one too ended in heartbreak for our family.
It is so hard to keep believing- to keep hoping when your hopes and dreams are continually dashed across the stones. All you wanted to do is curl in a ball and cry. You’re angry, that you let your guard down and got hurt again. It stinks. So many emotions war for the spotlight. Days tick by… and your friends look at you wondering what the heck happened, while you mourn the lives of the children you never met but had already become part of your family. As time passes you begin to heal, you learn to keep taking baby steps, one day at a time. To keep the faith, that one day the desires of your heart will fill your arms.
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Ironically our dogs’ name is Faith. She is our constant reminder, have faith… On our wall, there is a sign “Faith shines brightest in the dark”. Keep believing, one day you will have the desires of your heart.
Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life. Proverbs 13:12…
