Just like every little girl I dreamed of what my life would look like. I saw me as a wife and mother. I saw me with a tall, handsome man with a house that would make all my friends jealous. I saw me performing my music for thousands of people at different Bible conferences on the weekend. I would bring my kids on stage with me as we would sing for the Lord. It is what I yearned for until my junior and senior year of high school. It is what I KNEW was going, no not just going to happen, but it HAD to happen.
I am not even close to being a wife and mother. In fact, I will more than likely see my younger brother get married before I ever do. I did not go to school for music. I do not perform for thousands of people. And no I do not have a house that would make my friends jealous. But what I do have is an understanding that when I feel the loneliest ever, I have a Heavenly Father that has ordained every step and has never left me. I have a supernatural love for every middle school student that walks through my classroom door. I have a ministry in public schools that I would have never had performed in my own ability for other believers. They may not call me Mamma, but I will be Miss in the place of that as long as I can to be there for my students who may not have a momma. No, my plans did not work out, and I would be in a different place at 22 if I had done it my way. But THANK THE LORD that Bethanee was not in control of this life. He knows the plans, and BECAUSE HE LIVES I will not worry about tomorrow.
