Lord, when will this be over? How much longer Lord? Oh my gosh! If I had a dollar for every time I’ve asked Him that question, I could have paid cash for my car! I really thought this was going to be easy. My testimony is filled with some really horrible, desperate things so I thought sharing one of them with the world would be a simple thing. It hasn’t. I’ve hit the delete button more times than I can count.
Jesus has always walked with me but I’ve only walked with Him 15 years. I used to cry out “why” more than “when”. When only came after learning to worship the Lord with my sorrow, knowing that He would make something beautiful out of it! I’ve walked through the horrors of rape, abortion and suicide attempts. I’ve struggled with poverty, homelessness, and being a single parent. Nothing in my life has broken my heart as deeply as my family has. My family is a puzzle in a box. None of the pieces are put together. I can put two or three of the pieces together for a short time but they soon are pulled apart. It’s tragic, ugly and very, very heartbreaking! I’ve never known what it’s like to have a normal family. When you walk with the Lord, you learn that life is full of seasons…good ones, bad ones, long ones, short ones. I’ll be 53 this October. This season with my family is one I’ve been walking in all my life.
“When” has been mostly Psalms 13 to me for many years. “How long oh Lord will you forget me?” When will this be over Lord? When will my son come back? When will my family be whole again? Now, more than ever, “When” has become Psalms 126. It is a thanksgiving for restoration. When the Lord restored the fortunes of Zion, we were like those who dreamed. Our mouths were filled with laughter, our tongues with songs of joy. Then it was said among the nations, “The Lord has done great things for them.” The Lord has done great things for us, and we are filled with joy.
Seasons come but they also go. Seasons end. God turns them around. I declare salvation, reconciliation, and restoration for my family! Thank you Lord!
Linda lives in Columbia TN with Norman and BJ, her faithful furry babies. She is mom to her son, Jaymz, and Nani to her grandlovies Toby, Charlie and Skylar.